Wonderful.

The past week or two has been a strange stretch of road for me. I'd never felt more connected to the people I care about--at first. And then there came a time when things shifted. Now I feel disconnected from almost all of my friends, but closer to my boyfriend.

My health is on a steady decline. Although apparently, the side-set of symptoms that didn't fit everything else (neurological issues and joint dislocation) could be the result of a couple meds I've taken. So maybe things aren't so strange after all--and I might be able to get some money for the neurological problems (I'm not going to rely on the promise of it, but the possibility is there). For once, one of those stupid "If you or a loved one has experienced any of these problems after taking such-and-such medicine, call our law office" commercials was useful. Even if I don't become part of the class action suit, it's an explanation for something that had been confusing my doctors.

It's so hard to concentrate, lately. The nausea is constant, but every once in awhile it reaches up in a wave and knocks me for a loop. The pain is growing steadily as well. Sometimes it's like it feeds on my hunger. Sometimes it's almost as though I can feel that traitorous organ; swollen and aching. I want it out. Not too much longer, now.

I'm feeling discontent. Let's hope it fades.